This is my story of a God who takes our girlish dreams and gives us brokenness, then takes our brokenness and gives us what we long for most of all — Himself.

At 18 years old, I was the girl with the world on a string. Never could I have imagined I’d be single till I was 34, spend two decades in the deep waters of anxiety and depression, suffer years of chronic illness, give birth to a child with multiple health complications, walk through a prolonged season of relational conflict and financial angst, and one day hear those life-altering words, “You have cancer.”

But God knew. He’d already dreamed up plans for me that would leave mine looking anemic and frail.

In fact, His plans have always left mine resembling what C.S. Lewis described as “an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea.” Whenever I’ve surrendered my mud-pie plans to the Lord, He’s unfolded His infinitely better ones.

This blog is where I look at the beauty of suffering in light of God’s goodness, and I point myself (and hopefully you too, dear reader) back to the Only One who can turn our grief into joy—in every season of our lives.

Warmly,
Colleen Elisabeth Chao

colleenechao@gmail.com

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Colleen is a former editor, English teacher, school administrator, and youth leader who is now mastering the finer arts of dirt, dishes, and little-boy discipleship. She makes her home in Southern California with her husband and son and their joyful community at Cornerstone Fellowship Bible Church

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I don’t think that’s a very good question to ask a writer, ‘Why do you write?’ You write because there’s fire in your bones.”
– Eugene Peterson

“Whenever you are fed up with life, start writing: ink is the great cure for all human ills, as I have found out long ago.”
– C.S. Lewis